clinically weird and eccentric! schizotypal, autist, &. cursed with mental disorders that both affect how i percieve and am percieved, but pulling through because of my amazing friends. i'm both asocial and socially inept, so many of my interactions may come off as awkward or out of place woops. i don't feel the need to make relations with anyone, but do get stuck in yearning phases. in general, i struggle with maintaining and making friends. my state of self in general is very loopy and at times i experience major episodes of apathy and or depression which causes it to become difficult for me to be deeply rooted in a conversation. because of my stpd I say things that don't really make sense to others and may come off as strange. as well as a lot of words i use have their own meaning to them, so if anything feels out of of place, asking for clarification is always a-okay! i also speak extremely long vocally and via texting to get a point out (in short, wordy as hell) and i have trouble with wording. i get bored and anxious quickly, so if i stop i'm probably just taking a break. i don't view myself as human and feel heavily less connected with everyday people. i don't understand them, nor do i really want to. stpd is not talked about so much and is lesser known personality disorder from cluster a, so if anyone wants to learn more about obviously check the dsm5. but i also think this fact sheet goes into depth and explains it pretty well.

i'm taken as of 08.05.26 and i absolutely adore my girlfriend. if you don't like her, i won't like you. hi, hello loulou ❤︎⁠ i don't like being boxed into a label, plus my identity to myself is very confusing which is why i don't use any. my ID is strongly influenced by marvel comics. i am literally genji, shimada, mizuki kawano, wuyang ye, johnny storm, rictor, lin lie, and jean-paul. not really, but i identify deeply and view a lot of myself in them. i don't play about them, ok... lots more listed here.

my special interest!! in general terms is superheroes, but i am extremely marvel comics focused. my whole marvel rant is here ok?.. as listed in other extendeds, i am a lot more mutant and random team centric when it comes to my faves. examples of those are; new mutants, generation x, runaways, fantastic four, young avengers, x-force, champions, avengers academy, avengers a.i., x-factor, alpha flight, agents of atlas and so mannnyy more. specific characters would be johnny storm, doug ramsey, jonothon starsmore, victor mancha, lin lie, rictor, shatterstar, tommy shepherd, noh-varr, jean-paul beaubier, sam guthrie, and more in here! i also enjoy marvel animated shows! my personal faves are spider-man 1994, spider-man unlimited, x-men evolution, fantastic four: world's greatest heroes, the avengers: earth's mightiest heroes, ultimate spider-man, and some others i can't remember atm! i play marvel rivals too, user douglock! if you know me, you know that i never stop talking about marvel. so sorry, yes i am a chatterbox. plus! i love teaching and learning more about my interest (unlike certain people), so if anyone wants or has any reccs i'm all open for them!

although my focus mainly revolves around marvel, i do have other interests! i dabble very little in dc. from there i'm a big fan of kyle rayner, bart allen, lonnie machin, cameron kim, connor hawke, and gotham academy. i'm heavily hyperfixated on overwatch as of late (save me). currently lvl 19 wuyang and i forgot what level i was on mizuki, but he's there! plus big fan of tenet and robert pattinson, the interest is coming back. so many of my other interests are listed here.

all i ask is for people to be normal, whether in relate to interests or just in general. what i have listed about myself is not meant to be a list of what you can take to make you sound more mentally ill (which has happened from ex-friends #yes, you're weird. congrats). it's there to show what to expect from me. i also, like anyone else, don't like being cyberstalked.. so if you are someone that's not in my life anymore, stay out of my stuff and leave me alone. i know this might come off as "well he doesn't know when i look", but i don't care. i'm putting it here to let you know that i AM aware. i fully believe that if you ghost instead of talking something through, especially when it comes to crossing boundaries you never voiced, you are the problem. it's not good to assume a person always knows what your problem is. i am not someone who will harrass or hold secret animosity towards you for sharing the same interest as i do or possibly knowing or idulging with it more. i think people who do that are childish and should get off the internet if a media having an existing fandom bothers them so much. i understand defensive interests as i'm autistic as well, but i will never tolerate being a jerk because of it. i also think lying about when you liked something to make yourself seem like a bigger fan than others is weird. it's a non-issue, but still. blah blah blah more boundaries here!