6/7/2026
look everyone today is 6/7 hahaha i want to see cassidy 67 because that emote should have been universal. also i really want to try drawing more yumeslop. so i'm going to try and buy an ipad solely for drawing. i think that will up my productivity for drawing because it's hard to draw on just my phone especially when my stylus won't work with my phone. but i don't want to have to commission a million people to get my fill of yumeslop i want to draw some myself as well but im like so bad at drawing cassidy and if i'm being honest it's his fuckass haircut LIKE he's so cute and i like his hair but does it have to be so annoying for me to draw
6/9/2026
so since i've been playing monika after story i've been thinking like "hey what if this was my yumeship haha" which is a really fun thought to me. idk who would be in which position but either way i think it's fun and i've been thinking about revisiting some old projects because of it. i'd like to make a visual novel just for me revolving around my yumeship's lore. i love writing and i HAVE been writing the story, but i'd like to see it played out in a different format! it would also give me a chance/excuse to draw cassidy more because of sprites and all. it'd be a fun project lol. cassidy is just so cute i'd also love to have a monika after story but with him instead lmao which is something i might do if i ever end up making that visual novel. yknow today i was playing overwatch and i still can't stop targeting cassidy players. i'm sorry i feel bad like no i don't mean that cassidy i'm sorry i love you but you have a juicy ass and i don't have very good aim maybe have a smaller hitbox idk. anyways i love cassidy a lot! last week i bought a red and black flannel because i think he'd wear something like that. admittedly i wear it a lot (including to sleep when it's not too hot) because it's not something i'd wear myself so it feels like wearing someone else's clothes a bit. idk it sounds kind of weird but it brings me a good deal of comfort which is what matters.
6/27/2026
Hi it's been a while since i've updated this but that's fine. with characters like cassidy i feel like people don't like to think about them being soft and vulnerable. but i'm cassidy's BIGGEST and SMARTEST fan so i am NOT like that. he's not all confidence and swagger even tho it seems like that sometimes. i think he's deeply insecure about his smoking and drinking since he knows it's a) not good for him and b) harsh on people around him. i actually have a yumefic about this heh!
i also think cassidy was a child of neglect. like his parents really didn't give a shit about him. he was running around doing fuckall as a teenager and formed a biker gang and no adult was there to intervene. he got put in jail at 17 and approached by some random man saying "come with me or stay in prison for the rest of your life" and not a single person gave a shit about where he went. i really think he was some kind of homeless and that's why he's used to being alone and/or nomadic. so you can see how i imagine him taking comfort in being able to be vulnerable with someone. he's so cute i just want him to put his head in my lap and pet him like a cat while he cries he's my little bunny awwww look at how cute he is right here look 
cute little bnuuy mwwaahhhh ok that's it i just want to cuddle him like a plushie even though he's a 39 year old man that kills people