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Hi iam momo and this is my Diary rhing! i think? idk. i stole this from dat one cool sematary rentry so umm. Shout out to dat guy for rhe idea HGEGEHEEHEE chuckles evily umm IF U WANT A UMM Liek imtro about. Me!!! go to my Awesum extended rent ryOki Go check rhat out if u want OK TONTO MY DIARY OK OK OK
4/30 3pm ᢉ𐭩 hey bro omg at school i kept
sneaking looks at me huzz. and i walked behind him when we were going down to linch. this doesnt matter to the usual person but it matters to ME because being really close to someone i liek makes my heart do flutter☺🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋👐🏾👐🏾🦋🦋🦋Flutrer flutter flitter! ughh hea so cuye im so creepy towards him its like a onesided parasocial relationship cus hes a "popular" kid and im a (sorta??) known emo kid...hmph.
4/30 10:15pm ᢉ𐭩 oh my god i hate. All of you. i dont mean that hehe anyways bro i started tweaking tf our egery little thing was irritating me and idk why can spmeone loke rid me of my retardedness and make me normal or soemthign. Im soooo. Sieecckk of iitttuhhhh. F**k me and my stupid lief. tomorrow is friday and while i do have a social studies test to do that doesnt amtter cus im fonna wear comfy pj pants to school hip hip hooray! i miss the hizz. my friend saix she was gonna get my huzz's friend's number so maybe..if 2+2=4..she cluld somehow get my huzz's number for me..gheheeeh..i have his tiktok bit im too nervous to add it cus what if he thinks im slme creepy freak Aeeheeuuuuuu i want to Le die-
5/1 4:15pm ᢉ𐭩 wake ip. its da first of sa month. iwant to Kill meself ugghhh People are annoying and and Ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh ggggggghhhhhhh whayever!! i think this is a sign for me to drink fuys.! bring back drinking alcohol while listening to music?!?! ok Wait my day wasnt THAT bad i just um like idk when by the time i got home i was just like irritated. idk. i think its because my home life is so boring compared to what i do @ school..my mum said she would Get me a playstation soon so its not dat bad. ill be abl e to play overwatxh at my house instead of my sisters house #WhoCheered? bro ive been looping rb3 all day today and yesterdayhehe also i might just. take a nap. while listenign to musi.c cus that usually makes me feel So much better Compared to Whatever the hell Is going om With me right Now
5/1 5:25pm ᢉ𐭩 i love my friends i love melarky i love ray i love moira i love carvel i love jamie i love jordyn r i love mark i want ronan to die i love creep i love angel i love ket i love toby i love tee i love morgan i love rose i want calvin to die i love all of mt friends theyre all so sweet and funnt oh God i love them more than i can even say!!! oh also today is THE zero day guys.
5/2 8am ᢉ𐭩 i wanna buy maur boxcutters!! i need to collect cute blades and knifes and boxcutters 😢💔 bro omg i remember one time i told my bbsf carvel that i wanted a butterfly knife and i said it was just for collecting and he said "just for collectinf right..?" Nigga im not gonna Cut myself dont Be such a Part y poopereeuughh
5/2 10:15am ᢉ𐭩 i frel so paranoid oh my god oh mygod oh ymgod help
5/2 1:40pm ᢉ𐭩 Relapsed like a fag award!
5/3 9:30am ᢉ𐭩 Hi guys so um Context for yesterday + update On how im feeling Today ok.? ☺☺☺☺ so yesterday ermm it just Wasnt my day. Ok.? I was like freaking tf (the Fuck BTW) out and Nothing was hoing Right for me so i Basikallyyy Relapsed!!!☺☺But then i cut too deep Well not too too deep but Liek i cut to the point where i xould see the white under my skin And i was Kinda scared but i just Pit on some pj pants and used That as a bandage cus my House dont have any big bandaids But. WHO GAF? Luckily my day started to get alot better after that i Talked to a few of me friends and i laughed alot And my day wasnt so sucky! and umm Today i woke up feeling normal. everything Is ok now! Also shout out to mark and rose for checkingup on me. i Love youguys yall Are real ones!!!!
5/5 8pm ᢉ𐭩 forgot to write yesterday ooosies anyways im doing Ok! my week has been Going rlly good so Far and i havent started tweaking out yet
5/9 9:25pm ᢉ𐭩 my mom found out i cut myself ☺☺☺ we went out together, and i decided to wear shorts that luckily covered my thighs, but umm. when we were finished shopping and i sat in the car, they rode up. so when she went to look at the bag i was holding, she saw my cuts and the convo went like this: ", are u cutting urself?" "umm maybe" "why? do you think its cool or are you doing it cus of something else?" "um..i dunno. havent been feeling well." "well , stop doing it. it leaves scars." "yes mama.." and then we sat in silence for a bit before we started talking about her spotting her boss and me spotting an irl in the store. i dont think she told anyone else about it which is good cus i dont want to talk to some bitch ass therapist again
5/15 6pm ᢉ𐭩 Hello everyone! i have Returned!!! Umm i think my huzz is Catxhing onto me liking him. cus today In class i heard him and his bsf talking, and i heard His bsf say ", What would you do if someone in this class had a crusb on you? Theyre RIGHT under your nose." and i felt my heart like skip a beat cus i was sitting on the floor so i would technically be. Under bis nose. Ggheeehhhh IM #NERVY
5/17 6:30pm ᢉ𐭩 two things. one, i think i have seasonal depression. my mental is getting bad again Aeeueuueee.. two, i wish i could just. be certain people or characters, i just wanna be donnie darko or jeff koval or something.!! i wanna live in my fav medias. that would be nice! even thiugh my fav chatacters are usually mentally ill, thats ok. they just like me for reals! i wish i was the female donnie darko. well i just wish i was from a horror movie. i would be so preyty and everyon e would loveee mee..hehehee!!!..!!.i feel like a dtupid larping chud when i type like hthis. im trying too hard to be aome depressed mentally ill girl venting anout her stupid gay issues that she wouldnt have if she was just mormal. whatever. iwish i wsas a boy. i really wanna be donnie darlo. like. really bad..i hope in my next life im a white boy that looks just like jake gyllenhaal so i could be donnie. with my cute dark brown hair..and my sad little eyes..ugeeuueghh. being a girl fucking sucks. im ugly retarded and suicidal. couldnt i jusy pick a striggle? fucck mee.. i dont want to go to school tomorrow. im starting to get obsessive over my crush, its kinda dcary. i miss my friends though. i love everyone at my linch table..well, who i talk to at linch. ray, jamie, tyler, and sometimes jeanise. we're the perfext frienf group! i love them so much..im so sad school isnending soon. i womt be able to see them anymore. fuck me in my tight little bootuholeee ugghhh
5/27 10pm ᢉ𐭩 hi. 2 things! one, im starting to gain weight and its aggrivating me. last time i checked, i was 115 pounds. i checked again on monday, and guess my weight now? 144 pounds. i wanna kill myself cause of it. i used to be the prettiest skinny girl, and now im gaining weight and i look like a fatso. i used to look so cute in clothes, but now i cant wear tight shirts without having a little pudge. atleast my butt is big.. two, recently i followed my huzz on insta, and he accepted my follow req :)!!! i hope he follows me back, so we can start texting..and then we can get closer..hehe..
6/11 2:50pm ᢉ𐭩 hi im starting to lose weight, well im trhing to, and also my mental health is getting so much worse and now im getting overly obsessive over literally anyone that shows me some sort of affection or attention . send tweet
6/29 9:25pm ᢉ𐭩 HEY BITCHES!! WHO MISSED ME i havent said anything in a while but im back. :) a few updates.. school is over! ive been having alot of identity crisises recently, especially on the topic of me being a boy.. but um.. we dont talk about that heh. besides that, i still have a crush on that boy i talked abt a while back. i found all of his socials but im too scared to follow them hehehe.. but anyways.. oh, about me losing weight, i have a little pudge at the bottom of my stomach that my mom pointed out and said i shouldnt have, and now i feel fucking obese even tho shes way fatter than me but whatever
7/24 8:50pm ᢉ𐭩 summers almost over! i barely did anything, mental got worse, i'm a donnie n pilot fictionkin now, and im also questioning if im a system ☺yayyy