𓏼 ◜ ͡ ◟‿⑅ ✿⠀ Haii my name is Jasmine and this is my little love letter for my friends since my elementary days—Gusher, Chaos, and Minty ♡ You guys have been with me since forever and you were important people in my life too. You all helped shape who I am, especially since I've been surrounded by you guys for most of my elementary days until I moved.

𓏼 ◜ ͡ ◟‿⑅ ✿⠀ I still think about you guys sometimes—in the classroom, in the canteen, and when I'm waiting for my pick up. I know we could have went anywhere and everywhere; I know you guys would have kept me company. To be straightforward, I miss you guys. Awkward Emoji. I didn't realize it until recently, but you guys really left a big hole on my chest. I've yet to find a person that feels as entertaining yet permanent as you guys.

𓏼 ◜ ͡ ◟‿⑅ ✿⠀ No, Jasmine is not killing herself, I just wanted to be kind because I felt like it and I want you guys to know it. No, Jasmine did not use ChatGPT, everything here comes from my bare heart. I'm so sorry if I come across as weird but this is me being super vulnerable it's ok you guys can kill me after this I won't blame you ♡

⠀໒ྀི ゛ To Minty,
⠀𓏼 ◜ ͡ ◟‿⑅ ✿⠀ I had to put you first of course, you've been my longest best friend EVER. We've been friends since 1st grade and up until now we're still going strong and I'm super grateful for that. I really admire your knowledge and dedication to your craft; it's really inspiring seeing you commit yourself to your projects and creativity and I like to think you'll do wonders sharing that knowledge to the world. I don't know if you think the same, but you're an ambitious and passionate person and that'll get you SO FAR in your life I promise. Never let that spark die. But I want to be talking about YOU personally.

I admit, it's been a long time since we've last seen each other in person, so my memories are starting to rust. I'm bad at perceiving personalities through text. I already told you how creative, passionate, and ambitious you are, but it's probably pretty generic already, so I just wanna say instead that you have a chance to be a wonderful, inspiring person. You have a mind that pours their heart on what you set your eyes on, and I think you can do so much with that. You could inspire people through what you write, you could have people feel seen with your characters, you could give people an escape from reality with your stories. Honestly speaking, I think you'd achieve this far better than I could. I don't want to put any heavy expectations on you by the way—remember that's just what I think !!! It's alright if you have other plans, I think you'll go to wonderful places either way with how much care you have for what you love.

I don't know if you know this, but you're a loving and caring person in your own way. you really care for art, and I can notice it's an important aspect in your life too. It's amazing to see another person have so much love for art because you don't see people like this all the time !!! People are always focused on gossip, other people, issues, love life, or being parasocial. Engaging in art is important too and I think you embody that lesson.

Another one is I wanted to be a little concerned. We're similar, but I'm not sure how similar we are in terms of connecting with other people. Regardless of how we're living our life, I think I'll always understand you. Not a vent by the way, just honestly speaking, but the other day I was thinking about my life and how I connect (or rather, how I don't connect) with other people. I like things that majority of our environment don't really know or care for. I'm probably considered a weird kid. Outside of my friends (or even within my friends), I'm probably a little alienated. And you went ahead and popped up in my mind, and I thought “Wait, what if you felt like this too and I was so ignorant?”

We're obviously neurodivergent people, just handling it differently. Two sides of the autism spectrum how fun is that !!! /Silly. I know the life of being neurodivergent is a tough one; I don't know your life or what's going on and I don't want to project and make up stories or anything, but I want you to remember that if you're thinking some odd stuff you can always come to me. I'm genuinely serious, cross my heart five million times. I want both of us to have each other's backs and I want this friendship to be mutual and be more meaningful than storytelling all the time.

Lastly, I want to apologize. I don't know if you picked it up, but it's obvious to me I haven't been the greatest person to you. I can be extremely dry, I can be avoiding you at some point. Please remember that it doesn't mean I want our friendship to be over. I go through a LOT of mental gymnastics due to fatigue, plurality, and doubt, and it stirs up the worst attitude in me, but please never give up on trying to connect with me. I don't want to stop talking with you either, nor with anyone I deeply know. Stay safe and healthy, drink water, and remember I'm always doing my best to be available ♡

⠀໒ྀི ゛ To Chaos,
⠀𓏼 ◜ ͡ ◟‿⑅ ✿⠀ I don't know if you consider me a best friend to some extent, but I do. This time I want to start off my letter with an apology. I haven't been the best person to you either: I'd also give you extremely dry responses and even ignore your messages. As I said earlier, I can enter a terrible mental state which has me acting up and doing cold things. I'm really sorry for my episodes, and please know it doesn't mean I want to stop being friends. Never give up on me, I will enjoy talking to you as much as you enjoy talking to me !!!

Now for the real letter. You make me feel like an ordinary person when I'm speaking with you, and a good way. Admittedly (and not a vent), I struggle with how I see myself, but I'm able to cast aside that doubt and just be... normal, when I'm talking to you. I don't know how to explain it, but it's like I feel like a fresh person and I feel like I can have a redemption at life. Talking to you makes me cast aside all my worries in how I see and present myself—hell, I probably just forget myself entirely (positive remark). You're majorly a warm and comforting presence, so I think that contributes to it.

Second of all, I also want to remind you that you're free to be more honest and speak up your mind more with me. I might be asking for a lot though, so it's alright if you don't feel like it. I don't know when it'll be needed, but you're completely welcome to drop the “warm girl” image any time talking to me, you're completely welcome to say meaner things, you're completely welcome to make fun and tease me or anyone. If it's too much, I'll say it when it's too much, but it's completely okay to be more meaner—me personally, most of my friendships have me or the other person being mean and making fun of one another in some way. I'm totally okay with it, so don't worry. And also if you have a problem or thinking weird thoughts you can absolutely come to me !!!!! I am not the best comforter but I'm always here to listen.

Third of all, I want to connect more with you and you are absolutely welcome to chat me any time. It's been a long time since we last talked face to face, and sometimes remembering it makes me sad. Approach me ANY TIME, seriously, whether it's all the time or not. You can always come and say hi without a topic in mind, I don't care. You could send a random fun fact. Literally say anything. Most of the time replies might be late due to school + being busy with something, but I'll always do my best to reply regardless. I want to talk to you as much as we used to, and I want to do that again if it's alright.

Admittedly I have a super shallow understanding of you so I don't know what to specifically say, but that's what I want to fix. I want to get to know you better again, I want to know what you like, I want to know what you don't like, I want to know how to see you as, I want to know how you don't want to be seen as. I want to take my time knowing and understanding you this time.

Also lastly your characters and creativity in general !!! They're absolute cuties, I love the way you designed them, it's super pleasing and cute to the eye. And also, the Illit presentation you sent me a long while ago. I was surprised at your talent while looking at the slides because they were really nice !!! I can sense you'd be good in the designer field if you wanted to do it ♡♡ In general, all your designs (majorly character designs) are super pleasing to look at and you're super skilled at it. Keep doing it !!! ♡♡ And also I would love to see more of your stories, they're off to a promising start and I would love to see where you take off with it.

Stay safe and healthy, don't forget I'm always here, stay hydrated, and remember that I'm admiring from the sidelines /Platonic ♡

⠀໒ྀི ゛ To Gusher,
⠀𓏼 ◜ ͡ ◟‿⑅ ✿⠀ This is your THIRD love letter from me and there's gonna be a fourth after this. You have /Soyoanon and a Carrd right now You greedy as HELL !!!! Jokes aside, this'll just be an extension of the recent letter I made for you. I am so, SO thankful you came into my life. You help me feel more human and you're sometimes trying to break me out of my comfort zone by being reckless, and that's a good thing I really appreciate because I've spent most of my life hollowly prim and proper.

I really wanna thank how shameless you are when it comes to showing affection. You're always so outwardly loyal and it gives me a sense of comfort to know that you really will be by my side always. I'm sorry I can't reciprocate the same affection because I for the LOVE of me cannot say “I love you” in unspecified circumstances but I really do appreciate your loyalty and your incredible ability to feel and express love. I for one do not have that privilege, and I want you to be unashamed of your love and feel like you're worthy of it.

Now THIS is where I get hypocritical ♡ I'm preaching to you about how you should feel worthy of receiving love but I myself don't feel that way too. I avoid and ignore any affection because I'm never sure if people mean it or they're just trying to get something out of me, and I start shutting down and I never know how to respond. Point is, I'm sorry AGAIN for not being able to show my love so freely. I know it's not your focus but it makes me feel really bad when we're being sentimental and I feel like a rock while you're pouring your heart out.

Third point is, I want to acknowledge how much of a wonderful person you are, and how much more wonderful you're going to be. You already have so much skills, and if you tried hard enough you can be really diligent and innovative. Admittedly I feel small next to you when I look past all the stupid things and really see that you're an incredible and skilled person. With those skills you have you could have a lot of career choices in the future so I want you to make do of that. I can tell you'll have a future way shinier and brighter than mine, so please hold on to the fact that you DO have a future and continue to go through all the upcoming tomorrows.

Please stick with me even if it gets complicated with me. I tend to really spiral which kills all energy and has me going really dry with everyone and selectively choosing who to talk to and who to ignore, you could hate me for it, but please don't be hurt too deeply with my actions when I'm splitting or spiraling. I too hate being a complex person. Please help me get out of my grave instead; it's pretty audacious and I'm sorry for even asking it, but I do thrive off of validation and words and I would really appreciate outsider help. I'm so sorry for burdening you with things I can totally handle on my own you can snap at me if you wanted to. Like seriously.

I'm endlessly apologizing sorry I'm just really ashamed of everything while I reflect to make these letters. Let's continue this QPR we're sick of each other ♡♡♡ stay hydrated and dry, continue working on yourself, and know that I love you.