Hello, hi hello hi I'm staring at you with wide eyes as I type this ok? I have my difficulty with words as I have voiced, so I hope everything is phrased as well as I mean it. I love you! I don't even know where to start, you mean so much to me it hurts. Even from before we officially started dating, you were someone I looked up to (and still are). Someone I was curious about, about what you were up to, how you were feeling, what made you laugh that day, what made you cry. I wanted to know so that I could manage a way to always be there for you. Even if it was saying something stupid to make you laugh. I want to see you happy all the time, but I know life has its downs. Even then, I want to be there for you during them. Pick you up, like you do me. I want to be your support, your shoulder to lean on when you need it, your everything. And I mean it everytime I say I appreciate everything you do. I did not know love could be this way. Love where it wasn't filled with such a one-sided give and take. Love that didn't hurt. You showed me a love that never made me feel like I was too much. Like all that is difficult and strange with myself was deserving of it, rather than tossed to the side. You are my saftey. The one person I know I can always come to without being paranoid and ostrasized. I also know I am a lot, but you have never not been there for me. You are an undeserving amount of patient during and you never make me feel like what I am spiraling about is stupid. You talk me through it and understand the severity my brains mushes it to even when it feels so little. The lamp, everything that you gift me to help me feel a little safer, a little better. I will always hold dear to me and cherish them. It means so much to me that you gift me things for such a reason. I love that you see me. You see the real me, not the societal mask, the persona of a person. You see me and you show me that you can always. I love you for it. I want to do so much with you. I want to take you out, go on a date to an arcade and win everything (because we're pros), run in the rain, sit and lay with you, even just hold your hand. With you there, living through life feels brighter. I will not deny that I am scared, something so new, so intense. It scares me, but you give me the strength to pull through. I want to and I love being with you forever and all. I cannot wait to finally escape our hells, so we can create a safety of our own. Our circumstances behind meeting were not per say great (evil evil men), but I wouldn't change a single thing. I love and adore waking up to your messages. It fills me with strength that I wasn't aware existed to go through my day. I love sharing thoughts, our discussions about the world, or even something smaller like our interests, sending you videos, just everything. If it's with you, what isn't there to love?

We played Overwatch together and it was so so so fun. It was her first time and I am so happy that she played both the game I love and with me.. I am glad she enjoyed it as well!!! Also, Pro-Parah dropping to Comp soon? I love her so much 🤍