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ABOUT ME.
You may call me 0041 or Myfanwy, though I answer to several other names. I am 18 years old, born in August 2008. I currently reside in Australia (GMT+8), though I am Welsh. I have been in a committed relationship since the 16th of November, 2025. I love my partner dearly and have no interest in anyone else.
I use any pronouns. I am a femme aplaroace lesbian and a genderfluid/fae agender girl, though I am not particularly attached to labels or terms. I am also an alterhuman and selfshipper, neither of which I take excessively seriously.
BEFORE YOU INTERACT.
I am autistic and part of a DID system. I prefer being treated as one individual unless I explicitly state otherwise. I experience memory loss, dissociation, and a blurred sense of my own identity. I sometimes feel disconnected from myself and my emotions, or perceive the people and surroundings around me as distorted or unreal. These experiences can affect my awareness, memory, and ability to remain present.
The next paragraphs will probably make me sound insane and evil, but I promise I am not, and that I am somewhat good at being normal. I am generally a private person (which is funny, considering how in depth this URL is) and value my solitude. I struggle to form and maintain connections, often finding social interaction exhausting or uncomfortable. If I become distant, disappear for a while, or stop responding, it is rarely personal. Sometimes I simply lack the energy or desire to socialise.
I deal with several mental and physical conditions that affect nearly every aspect of my life. I am chronically ill, disabled, visually impaired, and not currently in recovery. Because of this, I can come across as cold, blunt, detached, avoidant, or difficult to approach. My tone is naturally flat, and I cannot use tone tags. I struggle to express myself appropriately, particularly when overwhelmed. I also struggle to get my point across, or communicate in the way I wish. If I ask for something to be dropped, typically it is because I am incapable of effectively communicating my side. Please do not assume my intentions based on how I communicate.
I experience severe, persistent social anxiety, paranoia, and distrust. I frequently question people's intentions and loyalty, sometimes interpreting harmless comments, situations, or coincidences as being directed at me. I struggle with social cues, particularly eye contact, and often isolate myself out of fear of embarrassment, rejection, or being unwanted. I am particularly sensitive to perceived criticism and rarely approach others unless I feel reasonably certain that I will be accepted. If I seem uninterested, understand that this is not necessarily the case.
My perception of myself and others can change considerably. I struggle with an unstable sense of self, including my identity, values, and self image. I have an intense fear of abandonment and tend to catastrophise minor issues or interpret feedback as criticism. I also have a tendency to become intensely preoccupied with certain people, sometimes idolising them or placing them on a pedestal, even when we are not particularly close or do not consider each other friends. I rarely make the extent of these attachments obvious, but my emotional state can become heavily dependent on our interactions, how they treat me, and whether I feel wanted or acknowledged by them. Small changes in their behaviour can have a disproportionate effect on me, leaving me overthinking our interactions or questioning where I stand with them. My opinion of someone may shift drastically, particularly when I feel rejected, and I may convince myself that someone dislikes me or intends to hurt me without clear evidence. I frequently seek reassurance, comfort, or guidance from those I trust, even regarding minor decisions, which can leave me overly dependent on others while simultaneously fearing or pushing away their support. I recognise that these reactions can be difficult to understand and simply ask for honesty, consistency, and patience.
I also experience intrusive thoughts and obsessive doubts concerning morality, honesty, and my own character. I frequently revisit past interactions, question whether my actions were ethical, or worry that I am fundamentally dishonest or a bad individual, even without reasonable evidence. I have a tendency to lie about small, inconsequential things, sometimes without thinking or realising. This is rarely malicious, though I recognise that it does not excuse the behaviour.
There are periods where I may act withdrawn, unusually sensitive, irrational, or simply difficult to understand. During these times, I would appreciate patience rather than interrogation. I do not always know how to explain what I am experiencing, and being pressured to do so rarely helps. Sometimes the best thing you can do is allow me the space to collect myself.
I am not particularly skilled at comforting others. I experience low empathy and often struggle to provide emotional reassurance, though this does not mean I am incapable of caring. Please do not mistake my difficulty expressing compassion for a complete absence of it.
WANT MORE?
For those who desire more, you may find the rest of my information here.